What is it about a brand new month? It’s like a fresh start to a yo-yo dieter like me. Because of course, just like on every Monday, I am going to stick to my plan, I am going to be “good”. I am going to lose this weight once and for all. Sigh.
I have just finished (I hope) a dental nightmare. It probably wasn’t realy a “nightmare,” but it was to me because I am a big baby. When I went to my dentist for a routine cleaning in early February, they discovered that there was a part of my molar missing, the last tooth on the upper left. I vaguely recall biting down on something hard, like a little stone, while I was chewing some food, so that must have been when the bit of tooth cracked off. It had a large amalgam filling in it, which is why it cracked.
Anyway, even though the tooth wasn’t bothering me (except that it was a catch-all for food) I dutifully went to the dentist and had it ground down for a crown. A temporary crown was placed, and I went home to endure 2 full weeks of pain and extra-strength Tylenol. There was obviously a problem with the temporary, because none of the 3 other crowns I had gotten in the past had caused me any pain at all. The temporary probably wasn’t sitting quite right. Why I didn’t call the dentist back and let them know about the pain and give them a chance to fix it is beyond me. I can be really, really lazy about stuff like this. Plus, the Tylenol took care of the pain very nicely — we just won’t think about what 2 straight weeks of arthritis-strength Tylenol every 8 hours might have been doing to my poor liver.
I went this past Tuesday to have the permanent crown placed, and endured the worst toothache pain I have ever felt when I got home that night. It was excruciating, and I was positive that I would have to have a root canal right through my brand new crown. Of course, I always think of the worst case scenario, so thoughts of infection, broken crowns and tooth extractions haunted my every waking moment. I was so depressed. Any thought of food plans, strength training, yoga, swimming, went right out the window. My mind was totally focused on that 1/4 square inch spot in my mouth.
Well, miracle of miracles — today my tooth doesn’t hurt. Did I dodge the root canal bullet? I think so! I am still avoiding chewing on that side, and I think it is still cold sensitive. I am going to give it a good week to settle down and then see how it feels to chew. I am feeling quite relieved right now.
Anyway, my whole point here is that while I was going through this little dental nightmare, I was strongly compelled to comfort myself with food. I felt that I “deserved it” because I was suffering pain and angst. Who deserves to go to Walgreens, buy a bag of chocolate-covered peanuts and eat the whole thing at their desk? I guess I thought that I did. And what I really deserve right now is tight pants, and I got ’em. Double sigh.
So, it’s March 1st, and I am back on the wagon. I am wishing myself luck!